Personally I have six planets in earth (out of ten) (natal chart) (astrology).
EARTH CAN BE HEAVY.
A daily gratitude practice is essential to me.
I have fun with it. I let it be my kinky desire for indulgence in poetic dramas filtering through my mouth this way… in this exact energy… OF GRATITUDE… of true felt-sense-appreciation… actual energetic fire … passion… delight… authentic presence… child-like glee… that burns up the heaviness and leaves me light-hearted… spacious… available to life.
Life is humbling. Let it be.
Heaviness sounds like complaining blaming shaming judging.
Gratitude is the opposite of that.
The skill of observing and narrating my own experience ((( in great depth of attention to detail enabling real surrendered detachment ))) makes room for incredibly rewarding manifestations… from a sate of deep simple satiation.
I cannot get too much practice of this skill…
this is a skill that serves me so well when it’s crunch time / everything exploding / tower moment / shut down break down melt down … I am able to access the slivers of opportunity to interrupt patterns and consciously steer my own ship free from conditioning and inherited shit
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ABOUT EXISTENTIAL KINK – – – – – A few years ago I was a participant in Game of Sovereigns, a Trashy Mystery School led by the indomitable Dr Carolyn Lovewell and her team. The sales pitch promised I would be a different person on the other side of completing the nine months together – I WAS SOLD.
Through many orchestrated and synchronous ego deaths I experienced a coming to terms – in my own being – of all the existential kink i have been and will be partaking in. I grew a relationship with ease (in general) in life through the stroking of my ego into submission (pleasant retirement mode) – incredibly honest simple presence. Now I’m here to Dom you similarly.
In Carolyn’s words from her website, Existential Kink is:
a general attitude towards life that’s all about dissolving negative patterns by being willing to uncover and celebrate previously-unconscious pleasure that we actually – paradoxically – take in those very same “yucky” patterns.
[…] That we human beings have a major habit of taking unconscious pleasure in “bad stuff” in our lives was well-known to founding giants of psychology like Freud, Jung, and Lacan. Freud called it “psychic masochism,” Jung recognized it as “the Shadow,” and Lacan called it jouissance.
All of these psychologists recognized that a major component of helping people involves getting them to acknowledge and “own” this kind of weird underlying desire for and pleasure in stuff that they ostensibly hate and feel very frustrated by.
[…] As Jung famously said, “Until you make the unconscious, conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it Fate.” He was absolutely right about that.
In other words, as long as we have unconscious (repressed, denied, disowned) enjoyment in some “bad” thing in our lives, we will keep seeking that very same “bad” thing out, we’ll perpetuate it without even realizing what we’re doing.
But the very good news is, the minute that we’re willing to make that previously-unconscious pleasure, conscious – the minute we’re willing to deliberately celebrate it and savor it – we create a massive pattern interrupt. We allow ourselves to finally receive the “dark secret joy” we’ve been (unbeknownst to ourselves!) seeking.
We let the desire that motivated the negative pattern be fully known and satisfied, and then we’re free to move beyond it and create something new.
Thankyou to Carolyn for bowing so deeply to life.
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I have fallen so much more in love with life since learning how to appreciate the natural existential kink of everyday life. I have accessed my ability to consciously navigate and fill my days with what truly lights me up.
I have integrated a butt-ton of karmic inheritance (collective shadow) and made peace with a vast array of possibly shameful personailities (low road expressions of archetypes).
I now live with an active connection to my higher self and enjoy everyday life more than I comprehended could be possible.
Existential Kink makes its way into most of my conversations because I have latched onto it and sucked on it – FED ON IT – as an exceptional and essential mind-frame & embodiment practice for rapidly evolving and sustaining healthy living.
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