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most of the time people say it’s narcissistic to be self-centred when really narcissistic conditioning has people imprisoned somewhere *separate* from centre … and that’s the whole issue for most of us … stuck in cycles born of narcissistic conditioning – off centre.

What I know about you 

there’s a monster a violence an ugly character that doesn’t behave … and somehow it’s trapped inside you.

You do your best not to let it out but sometimes when you’re tired … or when someone makes a suggestion that sounds like they don’t respect your efforts … like all the energy you put into keeping that monster at bay is going unacknowledged and unappreciated …

IT ferociously emerges. 

It doesn’t feel like you. You don’t really identify with it. You know yourself as sensitive gentle super caring and enjoying affections flirtations and friendliness. 

You have this undying sense that It’s not the real you. At the same time this inner knowing often translates to a lurking suspicion about yourself. You wish the reactionary beast would leave but you don’t know how to make that happen. A lot of your time in relationship is drained into dodging what might rattle the cage or worse yet crack it open. You ask others to behave in ways that don’t poke and provoke it … for everyone’s sake. Sometimes the asking sounds more like insistence. IT is desperate about something… and you maybe even black out when it uses your body to express itself … 

Hi I’m Kelsey and I lived my life like this for quiiiiite some time.

Turns out there were sad mad parts of me that really needed love but I didn’t know how to talk to them. i didn’t know how to touch them with kindness for a really long time… all I had in my intimate life were sad withering secret keepers and molten hot rage-aholics – there was no example of being truly kind to one’s self as the storage unit for contrary characters that we all are. 

I could feel my super-positive ultra-loving inner-being’s flame undying unyielding … and yet… distorted. Disassociation became the norm despite my best efforts to embody an eager enthusiastic educated appropriate evolved human being.

I was left with insane melt downs that only felt validated when I started working with a nonverbal autistic woman and I saw the same behaviour in her. She was trying so so soooo hard to be GOOD, but stuff would set her off. You know why? Because she wasn’t being fully authentic, she was living a rigid schedule of suppression and serving the comforts of her surroundings.

Oh GOD could I relate. 

I’m not huge into labels so it doesn’t matter to me if you identify with any particular name that might suggest how your brain is functioning … what I know is that regardless of how our brain is wired we NEED primal relief or the system overheats and standard institutional culture has created a facade where primitive coping habits are called immature and the term primitive coping is used to define psychotic personality. 

You are NOT a psycho because you have impulses for massive release.

okay well maybe psycho in that “psycho”technically means detached from reality and the current social reality is that of authorities not wanting you in your power and therein designating “primitive release” in terms perverted by a fear of being FOUND OUT as NOT NORMAL …

It is completely legit that you do your best to abide by your grooming keeping your impulses at bay .. but then somehow it erupts, doesn’t it?! Then strangely the grief and guilt of psycho monstrosity are tinted with an intrusive sense of relief. That conflicting combination of emotions starts the process all over again … of burying the confusion, locking it in the basement…. and frankly draining a lot of energy into imprisoning something that NEEDS expression … you’re bound to get tired again and have to live through it again even though you say NEVER AGAIN… 

*suggestive eyebrows* 

I like you. 

I get you. 

I am you. 

Most of us were set-the-fuck-up to be anxious avoidant insecure ninnies in terms of emotional intelligence because our predecessors were exactly that too… which pleased the patriarchy and left the people at odds … inside themselves & with each other. 

Sigh. Big exhale. Huuuuuge exhale. 

Security feels so much better than that scattered mess. 

Deep personal secure attachment is the desired outcome.

Spoiler alert: the monster is a fascinating friendly PLAYFUL creature when you let yourself speak its language : primitive release : energy movement : freedom : intense relief : acclimatizing comfort with new spaciousness : RESPECT. 

It’s SO legit this part of you hasn’t felt respected … as you were probably, like me, reprimanded for being chatty bouncy twitchy flappy… having fun with yourself letting your body lead… but then moving energy based on intuitive impulse was called inappropriate … and people treated your expression as an inconvenience …

You know why??? 

Because you fucking inherently inspired them. The movement of energy in you BECKONED them to allow the same … freedom breeds permission for freedom! …but they were devoted to rigidity, to holding on, stuffing it down, being turned off, saying no to “child-ish” impulsive behaviour of energetic release …….. and now you are living in an expression of this conflict too…

a need for primal primitive expulsion of energy + a desire to be an appropriate human who isn’t tossed in the looney bin for being more like a wild ape 

Well my dear, you can have it all.

Neurotic coping aka intellectual coping … is PRIORITIZED as the gold standard for sane people in our society … MEANWHILE it’s exactly what drives a person crazy.   This is what we will play with. 

I mean obviously I love words & intellectual stimulation & philosophy & cognitive frameworks etc … but I’d still be having violent tantrums that gave people permission to see me as an incompetent person & parent let alone an undesirable partner if it wasn’t for:-

making friends with myself as both OGRE & SIREN. 

The wounded masculine parts of me – OGRE – suffering in silence … the wounded feminine parts of me – SIREN – suffering in silence … until … I got too tired holding them back and they got their chance to be seen and heard … but never really getting the recognition they deserve. 

The ogre in me looked a lot like my dad … overheated and physically tantrum-ing … smash-y and scream-y … like an oversized hungry tired toddler indeed. 

The siren in me was more an emanation of my mother … more physically composed … but in extreme stress (occurring often enough) could deliver a tongue lashing seething stinging slicing vehement bitter linguistic combinations victimized & vengeful often sounding incredibly above average intelligent mixed with the scum-sleeze profanity of all the pirates she must have eaten… whatever smart thing said never reaching the target that’s for sure. 

What do OGRES & SIRENS have in common?
they attempt to control their surroundings out of FEAR & HUNGER. 

And it pretty much does.not.work. I mean… are you satisfied? Truly? I sure wasn’t. I wanted to be. I pretended to be. But it wasn’t the same satiation as I have access to now.

Now that… 

ogre stabilized satiated into emperor & siren stabilized satiated into empress. 

it’s not about eradicating the monster. It’s about feeding it healthy stuff so it isn’t so deprived depleted desperate for sustenance , recognition , release. 

The emperor (in tarot) is the epitome of ALL four kings. Likewise the empress is ALL four queens. What does this mean? They are whole. They are the embodiment of balanced elements. They are stabilized secure people who feel safe with themselves inside and out. 

This is available to you. 

I want you to have your dream romance and be the dream partner for your beloved person. 

I want you to have the stamina to fulfill your visions and vows. 

I want you to intensely enjoy life without lingering suspicion that anyone and everyone might set the monster free so you’re better off keeping to yourself… or staying at surface intimacy. We need your freedom of expression. And not just shallow versions that seemingly suggest you’re liberated … but full blown FLOW. 

You are worthy. And I bet nine months with me can convince you entirely. 

This is a rebirth. Where ogre & siren transcend any projections or beliefs of ugliness … of too muchness and not enoughness. Where you claim your throne as the fucking ROYAL leader of your own life … not in hyper vigilant stubbornly independent defiance … but in true disentangled alchemized SOVEREIGNTY. 

I’m a certified existential kink rapid shadow integration coach (which means getting to feel the pleasure of all your parts in a unifying process of deep inner alignment) ….  a master healer … a friendly-freaky psychopomp that can hold space through the intense moments of facing your own insides – steady and unflinching …

but you know what creeps me out? People devoted to lying to themselves about the monsters the pains the fear & hunger that live inside of them. 

NOT the fear & hunger itself… but the lying about it.

I don’t mind looking monsters in the eye. That’s exactly what it takes. And what I see in those eyes is worthiness –  misunderstood tenderness – a timid eagerness that can seem erratic …

Erratic energy is just energy that we can guide into playful expression.

I see this success in myself and my feisty firey son and my COOL clients everyday. One of my past clients just sold out her first high end retreat on top of hitting 6 figures in her business … and you know what she thanks?

the jaw stretches & hip swirls I gave her as homework.

It’s simple stuff but investing in an ally to stand with you … to call you out and call you forward … to receive your confessions with immaculate approval … to intuitively interpret playful methods of moving the energy that’s been haunting your system holding you back…. It’s invaluable.

Hunny… we’re in this together. We’re giving you the permission to actively discharge and circulate energy in ways where all inner parts are MET : fed & fulfilled. 

We’re all different but we’re all the same. A tube for energy to pass through and a spongey bubble in relationship with absolutely everything. Do you know yourself that way? It’s my invitation to you. 

The inner compassion that comes from this work naturally disentangles any feuds. the PEACE that arrives is so so precious … and that’s the energy you’ll be authentically sending out to your people. 

So nine months. It’s a rebirth. 

I have 3 spots open right now. 

We meet 3 times a month and you have one on one telegram access to me Friday Saturday Sunday. 

I have a professional background in astrology & human design so we can bring that into the works as well … not to inundate with information but to really acknowledge your unique system and the stories conversations characters at play and how energy LOVES to move through you.

You know what feels AMAZING?! Connecting to your soul promise and soothing all your parts into groovy gushing celebration of your honest to goodness essence. 

I’ll give you an hour for free to investigate if we’re an excellent fit. but do know that THAT will be a deep and transformative hour so don’t come luke warm and if you’re anxious or avoidant you need to be able to notice and name it. i can assist you from there. extremely rewarding.

So email me and we will set that up. 
MASTERQUELSAY@GMAIL.COM

Return to your RELiEVED authentic nature, harvest & harness genuine soul eXprEssiON, and acclimatize with bite-size practices that breed FUNCTIONALITY on the earth plane even as you EXPAnD in your experience of CONSCIOUSNESS.

“i don’t know if you know this, but many things you told me as my mentor have stayed with me through the years and made me the woman I am today. I don’t know if you know how much you helped me make my dreams come to reality.” – Elisabeth, Explore Imagine

I was STUCK STUCK STUCK addicted and wallowing in disappointment at life.
I used some free community resources when I realized I would probably die and decided to LIVE. From there I got the message that i had to BECOME the resource… being so naturally emotionally intelligent was one main reason I was so dang disappointed in my earthy experience of mainstream functioning that my family of origin & first decades of life offered.

My social worker told me I was FASCINATING so i decided to believe it. I took a GREAT BIG interest in myself for the next fifteen years and became
*the woman of my dreams * the person I needed as a kid*

I succeed through HIGHLY VALUING
both SEMANTICS & SOMATICS
in equal measure.

DCFO is the guiding light of accessible evolution & it’s the four word language that I channeled from the infinitely benevolent universe to sum up all of the above that I have spoken to…

PRIOrITIZING PRiMAL PRIMITIVE PARTS OF OURSELVES to access THRIVING ENERGETIC INTELLIGENCE that feels like TOTAL LIBERATION.

DCFO will anchor our work together.
DISCHARGE + CIRCULATION = FLEXIBILITY + OPENNESS
aka safe stable secure in your natural sensitivities for your best flow yet with endless room to expand beyond your dreamiest imaginings.

I WORK WITH GAME CHANGER PEOPLE.
people with prowess – architects of fresh realities – MAsTERS – the greats –
SPECIALIST mystic MAGICIANS – leaders of the free world
ARTISTS ACTIVISTS PARENTS & PEOPLE who care about IMPACT.

we are people of the
NEW PARADIGM
– – neurospicy paradise – –
truly being your own authority
disentangled – liberated
– – DEEP & TRUE – –

secure attachment to self : UN’FOC’D
remediation of narcissistic conditioning

you don’t have to know exactly what any of that means but if you feel it in your bones – rippling through your brain – dancing in your fingertips – twinkling on your lips .. then maybe i am the lucky duck to CHAMPiON you!

… maybe I am the mentor to witness provoke stroke and celebrate you into your next level.

you’re welcome to leap many levels in our time together if you’re willing.
I work with people who are honest humble and who do their homework.
I work with people living their real lives with GUMPTION & GUTS.

The ego often wants complex answers to complex issues… and we will be stroking this tendency into surrendering to simple stuff that stretches :

ALL THE WAY.

I have 3 spots available. 3 meetings a month. open text access fri-sun.

The verbal & nonverbal aspects of our exchange are all equally important – sacred & chosen – in MASSIVE respect – our container designed for RAPID RADICAL RESULTS.

We harvest & harness your confident connection to your own iNNER BEING – the eternal optimist – your biggest fan – your BANG ON compass.

BRING ME YOUR WOES your worries your fucked up relationship stories your career aspirations your question marks confusion collapses and your compassion compassion compassion. i will guide you in deepening compassion for precision in your speech and actions that offers efficiency & effectiveness in your efforts expanding your capacity for embracing your dreams with consistency clarity and casual everyday SUCCESS.

presence-ing your mind presence-ing your body presence-ing your purpose

HERo(IN) – you are the hero inside yourself attending to everything you care for through this inner relationship. Bringing justice to old stories & getting purposefully consciously addicted to the optimism and wellness of your inner being.

EVERYTHING YOU NEED IS ALREADY WITHIN YOU – ever heard that phrase? maybe you felt some split of hopefulness & frustration in hearing it? Well, it’s true. AND there’s a lot that gets between us and our own centre.

I love holding hands and that’s what this 9 months will be. Our hands will be linked creating a circuit between us so that you can feed from my world of immense deep conversation with CENTRE … and you can build tolerance and presence with a reality of increased FLOW.

FLOW is ease. FLOW is natural momentum. FLOW is structure & action applied efficiently & effectively for sensational felt reality of ease.
FLOW is deliverance.

FLOW OCCURS IN YOUR AUTHENTIC STATE OF FLEXIBILITY & OPENNESS.

this requires emotional intelligence aka energetic intelligence and you are WORTHY WORHTY WORTHY of having space held, being witnessed, prompted, celebrated as you gain traction with tactics against the grain of your grooming.

we reclaim feeling and sensing as your primary skillset relaxing your brain relieving stress and eliminating exhaustion. this work attends to shut down break down melt down territory and you begin:

REMEMBERING YOURSELF
IMMACULATELY TRUSTING YOURSELF
psyche centred – heart centred – soul centred
resolving all the issues that arise from living off-centre.

circulation circulation circulation
PEOPLE PROJECTS PASSION- infinite potential – living possibility – breeding permission

SOVEReigN – truly making your choices – release trauma – far reaching respect – sparkling integrity – ALL in the middle of the fuckery chaos of dynamic every day life – continuous integration & remembering – more & more ease – high quality contribution to collective

IMMENSE APPROVAL
PeNETRATIVE QUESTIONS
CONFESSIONAL ALCHEMY
ATTENDING TO UNCONSCIOUS
FEELInG BRILLIANT
SUSTAINABLE SUCCESS

upgrade your sense of self
attract & anchor your answers
WORK WITH ME

certified existential kink rapid shadow integration coach
certified kundalini gold reiki energy master
astrologer & human design enthusiast
timeline jumper & visionary

email MASTERQUELSAY@GMAIL.COM to proceed
we can chat more details xo

SOME TESTIMONIALS

The whole alchemy of Existential Kink rests in giving ourselves wild permission to enjoy the dark forest that we are, and Kelsey is damn good at facilitating this permission with humour and love. As a coach, Kelsey brings an exquisite level of attention & monstrously-approving wisdom that penetrates and nourishes her clients like water penetrates plants. I’m very excited for those lucky enough to experience the transformative glee of being held in the artistry of Kelsey’s field of awareness and inquiry. If you’re wondering, “Should I hire Kelsey as my coach?” – I will tell you: the answer is yes, yes, yes – *IF* you’re actually willing to have your old crunchy homeostasis dismantled and your new freaky joy & power emerge.
– Dr. Carolyn (Elliot) Lovewell, Author of Existential Kink: unmask your shadows and embrace your power, Visionary of the Immortal College

Kelsey holds magical space for you to feel into your body and emotions in a way that I have never experienced. She creates safe space and gives you permission to just BE by beautifully modelling being herself. She was able to accurately and intuitively pick up how I was cutting myself off from my human experience by controlling my breath and she invited me into a completely new relationship and awareness through some fun and gentle exercises that has really given me a reset. Kelsey is able to roll with my unconscious fear and resistance around my sensory issues that honoured my experience of living with a TBI and HSP and gave me some completely new reframes. What I love about Kelsey is she shows up from a strong center of love and radical acceptance. She both models and teaches living authentically and being deeply embodied. Every session with her is like a deep exhale that allows everything to relax and be felt so our wisdom can come through. 
I HIGHLY recommend working with Kelsey!
– Sheena Witter – Soul realignment failitator & Soul-based Business Coach

Thank you for this. This has been very comforting to me. I feel seen and understood. You really helped me to make sense of my experiences and provide a way of moving forward that feels real and productive for me.
I would love to do more.
– Lindsay, mother & academic

Kelsey is amazing . She has a sensitive approach that is both patient and insightful to help you learn about yourself and be your best you.
– K.D. funding specialist

Bless you Kelsey! Everything you say makes so much sense… Thank you for all your wise, caring words of wisdom, you give me strength and I’m truly appreciative.
– Catherine, artist & healer

Her attention is very gentle yet focused and you feel she is incredibly prepared to go into the depths with you to find light and understanding no matter what your circumstances might be. As an entrepreneur and a mother I felt Kelsey was able to relate on multiple levels while at the same time showing me the vast possibilities that exist – she demonstrated that not only is everything I want within reach but she also gave me the strategies to attain it. I am so grateful for how she was able to see, speak to and inspire my soul.
– Erica, mother & spiritual entrepreneur

Kelsey is a force. she uses her gentle energy to guide you through your life. She helped me to bring lightness and clarity where and when I needed it. I can’t wait to continue my sessions with Kelsey. She’s a gift.
– Christianne Cruz, mother & film director